Duckuss_Maxximus

Today I turned 26. I don’t really know how I should feel about it. Should I be happy? It doesn’t really matter because I can say whatever the fuck I want on here and it doesn’t really matter. I don’t have any of my so-called “friends” on here nor do I have anyone following me so it doesn’t really matter. I’ve grown so tired of everything in life that I don’t even feel alive anymore. In the 26 years that I’ve been on this rock I realize that people are fake. No one is really your friend and everyone’s out to fuck you in one way or another whether it be physically, emotionally, psychologically or otherwise. While not everyone is out to do harm the ones that are have damaged me and made me a bitter, angry person to the point that I feel I don’t have any sincere emotion within me any longer. I never wanted to become this but I don’t feel I have a choice anymore. It seems to be the way that other people get by so fuck it, why not? I’m tired of being sincere and honest only to get nowhere. So now I think I’ll just be brutally honest.
We play these charades of pretending everything is fine with one another but we never tell each other how we actually feel. I’m through pretending. It scares me sometimes thinking about where I see myself 5 years from now, 10 years from now because I can truthfully say I just don’t know. I try not to worry about the future so much because I have no control over it. And I’ve come to find that living in the past is never a good way to live either. So I try to just live in the present, “in the now”. But what do you do when you look around and nothing seems to satisfy anymore? You lash out, you rebel against your surroundings. The people, places and things that fill your life. I fucking hate all of it.

I just made this Tumblr so sorry if there isn’t much on here right now.

tumblrbot asked: WHAT MAKES YOU FEEL BETTER WHEN YOU ARE IN A BAD MOOD?

jerking off ;)